Guest Blog written by: Jessica Brown
she told me psalm 25 was for her daddy.
that was four months ago.
when she wasn’t even four years old.
i immediately dove right into the passage.
and washed in the grace of the words that only He could give.
because the Spirit was speaking through the words of a 3-year old to bring
‘do not let me be disgraced,
or let my enemies rejoice in my defeat. ‘
her daddy had stumbled in his faith.
and when one stumbles, there are always those who rejoice.
but we held our heads high and walked the difficult road the Lord had set
‘show me the right path, O Lord;
point out the road for me to follow.’
the road set before us has been long.
and winding. and often times foggy and difficult to travel.
but we have trusted His hand is leading us.
where has this road led us you might wonder?
to an 8-month separation where her daddy is learning to live out his faith.
days and weeks and months apart are teaching us all to lean in to the One
who loves us fiercely.
there have been days when we know beyond any doubt that He is carrying us
along the way.
‘do not remember the rebellious sins of my youth.
remember me in the light of your unfailing love,
for you are merciful, O Lord.’
sometimes we run so long from the sins of our past, we forget what we are
it isn’t until we slow down and look back that it sneaks up on us.
this is what happened to our family.
trying to outrun addiction and believing you can handle what life throws
your way is the hurdle that leaves you face down on the road.
yet, there is but One who remembers us in light of His relentless love.
when we understand the unfailing depths of His heart for us, the road
becomes more clear.
for we are not running from our past as much as we are running towards the
arms of He who pursues us without end.
‘for the honor of your name, O Lord,
forgive my many, many sins.
who are those who fear the Lord?
He will show them the path they should choose.’
psalm 25: 11-12
not a one of us is blameless.
there are far too many sins to count for us all.
but those who stand in awe of He who is perfect can walk the path He
for He illuminates the road to travel to the eyes that gaze upon His glory.
the path He chose for our family was one that led us away from each other
for these past five months.
there are still three months to go until we are reunited.
during this time apart He has done the miraculous work of drawing us nearer
i wrongly thought for many years that our storm wasn’t as great as the
storms of others.
but a storm is a storm.
and it can overtake you in a mere moment.
especially if your gaze is not set on the Author of your story.
to some our story is one of regret, shame, guilt.
lost causes. and unfulfilled dreams.
but to us, it is a love story.
a story of redemption, santification, and God.
because only He could write such a tale.
the tale of a man and woman. broken and bruised.
who He brings together and binds together and bears fruit together.
He is using our story of brokenness to show His awesome power.
to Him be all the glory.
for our hope is found in Him alone.
‘may integrity and honesty protect me,
for I put my hope in you.’
i do not believe in coincidence. or irony.
nor do i believe it was a fluke that we would be reading psalm 25 today.
friday. the day i agreed to blog about the passages along our journey.
because the Author of my story weaves beautiful details into every single
moment of each and every day.
may you trust the Author of your story.
and may you see His goodness at work in all the details.
the twists. and turns. and foggy paths.
for they are all designed by His plan.
to guide into His abundant blessings.